ILLOGICON 2017 schedule

Illogicon is a community based convention dedicated to Science Fiction & Fantasy in all media — books, TV, movies, animation, comics, the visual arts, pod casts, video games and more.

I’m appearing on the What is a “Real Game”? panel 8pm Friday with Ubisoft’s Tom Clancy writer Richard Dansky, convention guest of honor, author and video game writer Dave Ellis, game designer John Lapoint, and Justin Achilli, who developed ‘Vampire: The Masquerade’ and currently works for Ubisoft Red Storm.

We’ll discuss what makes a video or digital based game a game, and how people who spend four or five hours a day playing Candy Crush may have more in common with die-hard Halo players than they think. (Or, at least, that’s what the official schedule tells me.)

Why the hell am I on this illustrious panel of game writers and developers? Well, I’ve known Richard Dansky for several years but up until now haven’t had the chance to be on a panel with him, so I seized the opportunity. Plus, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to have a woman on the panel who defies the stereotype of the middle-aged female gamer who only plays Farmville.

From 10am to noon Sunday, I’ll be offering jewelry making lessons during the Geek Arts and Crafts workshop.

~ J.L. Hilton

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The fragrance of Skyrim

One of my viewers, Cristina Carry, creator of the Teldryn Serious quest mod, made this piece of fanart for me after I joked about the way my dremora lord says, “I smell weakness,” when I summon him with my Sanguine Rose staff.

Come join the fun on my Youtube channel. Around 12-2pm EST daily (depending on my schedule) there’s live chat to discuss lore, headcanon, play styles, tips, tricks, and how much I suck at archery, or you can always leave questions and comments on any of my videos saved to Youtube after the livestream ends.

~ J.L. Hilton

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Skyrim Special Edition special guest

I’ve been live streaming my Skyrim Special Edition game play on PS4, through my Jewelsmith channel on Youtube, since the release of the remaster last month.

Skyrim is my favorite video game of all time, and I was absolutely gobsmacked to discover that Dan Donohue, voice actor for my favorite Skyrim character Teldryn Sero, popped in to watch my livestream yesterday!

He also voiced Warden Eternal in Halo 5: Guardians. You can listen to an exclusive interview about that here.

~ J.L. Hilton

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Making android dreams of electric sheep come true

I listened to the SpazzyW interview with Fallout 4 Deacon voice actor Ryan Alosio this morning, and he said his dream role would be to play Deckard in Blade Runner, so I had to do this.

~ J.L. Hilton

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Tour the Commonwealth with me

Hello, Wastelanders! I’ve been writing about Fallout 4 for awhile, and now I’m doing videos on Youtube!

I’m giving tours of my settlements, which focus on role-playing and realistic construction, within the constraints of the PS4. I’m also doing some general gameplay videos, like the deathclaw vs. assaultron arena battle below.

I’m not doing a playthrough, since I’m level 108 now and finished just about everything in the game, but I might do some videos of the Vault-Tec Workshop and Nuka World add-ons when those are released.

You can check out the videos below and subscribe to my channel to be notified of new content.

When the remastered Skyrim comes to PS4, I’ll be streaming a ton of that. With 900 hours experience playing The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, and countless hours fixing glitches and reading lore, I think that will be informative and a lot of fun! I’m looking forward to it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

~ J.L. Hilton

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Wanton Wasteland: Hangman’s Alley

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For funsies a few years ago, I wrote some smutty fanfiction in honor of The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim. Now I’m playing Fallout 4 and I’m inspired again.

Do not read if offended by erotica, drugs, alcohol, voyeuristic masturbating ghouls, or a sole survivor who likes to do it mongrel style. This is all in good, dirty fun. The Commonwealth wasteland and its inhabitants belong to Bethesda and the creators of Fallout 4. I intend no disrespect to their incredible achievements.

If you’d like to see a tour of my actual Hangman’s Alley settlement in the game, check out my video on Youtube.

1,200 words.

“HANGMAN’S ALLEY”

Less than a finger of whiskey flowed into his glass as he sighed and shook the last few drops from the bottle. Hadn’t it been full when he started? No wonder he needed to piss.

Hancock swallowed the dregs in one gulp and left the bar. The rickety watering hole above Hangman’s Alley had no name. The flashing neon sign said “BAR” and no one called it anything else. Like a toothless wasteland jet-whore, you knew exactly why you were there and a name didn’t matter.

He glided down two flights of stairs to the street, moving with a slow grace that came from years of practice so no one could tell if he was drunk, high, both, or heaven forbid sober. Folks were less inclined to give you shit when they couldn’t peg your state of mind.

The crapper stood behind the general’s house. Not that he called her the general. He wasn’t in the Minutemen, he was the goddamn mayor of Goodneighbor so he called her Fiona. And it wasn’t hers, really, just a place she crashed when she happened to be around. Which she was, at the moment. Which is why he drank more than usual.

And the house wasn’t much of a house. Not like the Old State House, which was an actual fucking house. The general’s digs looked more like a big, broken shipping crate, built by the raiders she’d wiped out a few months ago. Back when she’d asked Hancock to stay and oversee the new settlement, him being mayoral and all.

Hell yes, he’d wanted to help. Not just because there were precious few safe havens for the scrabbling rabble who did most of the living and dying in the Commonwealth, but because—for the first time in his life—he didn’t want to run away. Fiona and her intriguing bundle of contradictions gave him a rush. She was an Old World woman awake in the wrong time. A charming combination of kind and ruthless, naive and brilliant, soft and steely. She wasn’t the kind of person you settled for, she was the kind you had to earn every day.

He’d tried to make her understand what she meant to him. Most of the time, he could talk a Gunner out of bullets, but, Jesus, that particular conversation with Fiona had gone off like a grenade in a shit house. Sure, she welcomed ghouls into the ranks of the Minutemen and helped the Slog as much as any other settlement. Fuck, a ghoul ran the general store right there in Hangman’s Alley. And if anyone didn’t like it, too bad, she wouldn’t stand for any prejudiced bullshit.

But it’s one thing to treat a ghoul with respect, and another to want his dick in you. When Hancock had drifted dangerously close to telling her he had a thing for her, the look on her face, it made him regret being what he was. Not for the first time in his life, sure, but for the first time since becoming a ghoul. He suddenly felt less like king of the zombies or savior of Goodneighbor, and more like the creature she saw when she looked at him—a scabby junkie in a tattered old coat. And that fucking sucked.

Then she’d run off to help Garvey with another settlement or five, and came back with MacCready all over her like green on a mutant. The viper in his bosom, the mercenary he’d sheltered in the Third Rail. Sure, MacCready’d done Goodneighbor enough favors, Hancock wasn’t about to shank him. He was a ghoul and he was Hancock. He would outlast MacCready and he would get what he wanted, in the end. He always did. Or, he usually did. And if that didn’t work, then shanking.

Meanwhile, whiskey soothed the sting.

Hancock rounded the corner. Uneven light marked the narrow path to the toilet, the glow of a single bare bulb escaping through cracks in the wall of Fiona’s shack. Sounds escaped, too, despite the rattling of the nearby generator. Not the cadence of normal conversation, but low and suggestive voices, punctuated by the creaking of crappy bedsprings.

Goddamn lucky bastard, he thought while he pissed. As he finished and tucked his junk into his pants, he heard Fiona moan. Blood rushed to his dick—because he wasn’t dead, y’know, he just looked like it. Inching closer, he peered between loose boards and saw them, MacCready on top and her legs wrapped around his skinny waist.

A piece of glass crunched beneath Hancock’s boot.

“Wait,” she said, and he thought he’d been heard. But, no, she only wanted to change positions.

“I want to try something.” She rolled over, onto her hands and knees, giving Hancock a spectacular view.

“Um, why?” said MacCready, being a fucking idiot. Did that guy learn nothing when he was running with the Gunners? Most of them would do anything for a few bottlecaps.

She’d lost weight since she’d first appeared in Goodneighbor—clean, soft, well-fed, and wide-eyed but trying so damn hard not to let her fear show. Like an angel in road leathers. Hancock woulda coulda shoulda fucked her right then and there, on Finn’s warm corpse. She was harder now, but still had a helluva rack and a round ass that was totally wasted on MacCready.

“Okaaaaay.” MacCready sounded uncertain. Seriously, kid? Where’s your sense of adventure?

Fiona jockeyed onto his cock and started rocking. It was goddamn beautiful, but for fucks sake, MacCready, would it kill you to give her a reach-around? She eventually started touching herself, and Hancock did the same, furiously tugging his shit in the shadows.

Then she sat upright, bouncing on MacCready’s thighs, as if she knew Hancock was right there and wanted to make sure he saw it all. Her hand flailed over her clit like the horns of a rabid, wounded radstag, and her body stiffened.

Right on. He suddenly felt religious, thanking god and any other invisible friends who might be watching. She cried out, arched her back and thrashed with a hard climax. No credit to the mercenary who didn’t bother to kiss her neck, bite her shoulder, pull her hair, slap her ass, scratch her back, or grab her tits. Useless. What did she see in this asshole? So, he had hair. So what?

In a strained voice MacCready warned her, “I’m going to blow.” He pulled out, she pumped his dick a few times with her hand, and he shot his wad on the mattress, so he wouldn’t knock her up. They both had kids, so they weren’t sterile and had to take precautions. Ghouls, at worst, would only give you radiation burns. Nothing a little RadAway couldn’t fix.

She kissed MacCready full on the mouth as if he deserved it and Hancock stepped away, unwilling to watch that shit. Fucking was one thing, but falling in love was something else. That she was falling for MacCready, it hurt.

He finished jerking off, wiped his hand on the starred and striped flag he wore as a belt, and inhaled a puff of jet.

It hurt like hell.

– J.L. Hilton

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Fallout 4: Romancing the ghoul

Hancock concept art (c) Bethesda

I have a confession. I’ve been cheating on my husband. Again.

I don’t want to break MacCready’s heart, but if I have to listen to him complain after I pick up one more battered clipboard in Fallout 4, I’m going to knock that pencil goatee right off his whiny mouth with the recoil-compensating stock of my plasma rifle.

I know, two months ago I said my love life was a toss up between Preston and Hancock, until MacCready won me over. Looking back, I had a thing for Hancock all along, but was too heavily into RP (role playing) to believe my sole survivor, Fiona, would jump onto him straight out of the vault. He’s a zombie pirate junkie who shanks a fool just for shaking her down, when only days earlier (in her mind) she was a suburban mom with a law degree, married to a handsome war hero.

But after two years in the Commonwealth wasteland, she’s used to ghouls and MacCready seems more like a lost boy who needs mothering than a man who’s the Sole Survivor’s equal. Over and over, again and again, I’ve imagined Fiona turning to John Hancock for counsel, assistance, friendship and … other things.

When I began moving settlers to Hangman’s Alley, a small slice of downtown Boston crushed between raiders and super mutants, I sent Hancock to guard them.

As I built Egret Tours Marina into a thriving center of commerce, I sent Hancock to keep things running smoothly.

When I built a bar and dance floor at the top of Abernathy’s farmhouse, MacCready seemed like the kind of guy who would try one slow dance, doing the junior high method of swaying awkwardly with his hands on Fiona’s hips, then he’d hide in a corner and drink bourbon. Meanwhile, Hancock and Fiona would dance the night away, singing along with every song on Diamond City Radio.

BTW Hancock’s voice actor, Danny Shorago, is a vocalist for the band The Fuxedos…

In my wasteland, the new “treasure” of Jamaica Plains is a brothel, complete with Grognak, Mechanist and Silver Shroud impersonators. I think Hancock, owner of the Third Rail, would be more than happy to help me get the place running and wouldn’t balk at the “Blue Room” – named after the color of its door – complete with handcuffs, sack hood and various “implements” such as wooden boards, shock batons, yardsticks and hair brushes.

MacCready seems to me like the kind of person who’d refuse to do kinky things, though he’d secretly want a paddling, while Hancock’s the type who’d be happy to hold the paddle.

If I need to commiserate about the stress of leading the Minutemen and rebuilding the Wasteland, Hancock is the king of the underworld and mayor of Goodneighbor, who understands “it’s lonely at the top” (his words, from one of his in-game conversations). MacCready would probably suggest I either ask for more caps or stop helping people.

After visiting the Institute and discovering what happened to my son, I immediately wanted to share the information with Hancock and get his advice – though the game offered no actual options to do so. In my mind, we had one hell of a long-ass conversation.

Later, when I needed to shore up the Castle’s defenses and prepare for an onslaught of teleporting synths and deadly coursers, I relocated Hancock to the fort. Other than MacCready, who was my follower, and Preston, who I assigned there permanently, Hancock was the only companion I wanted with me for the Big Battle.

I took MacCready to the top of Kingsport Lighthouse and he scoffed at the “lure of the sea.” When I took Hancock, he looked out over the water, smiled and said it was really nice. Yes, John, it is, isn’t it? Let’s stop once in awhile to smell the flowers. (Especially those hubflowers used to make Grape Mentats.)

Hancock grabs life by the balls, shoves jet in its mouth and takes it for a tour of the town. MacCready would prefer a rocky ceiling over his head and hiding his nose in some Grognak comics. For awhile, I could dig it. Mac and Fiona were both lost and alone, with dead spouses and sick sons – Duncan had blue boils, Shaun just blew.

But now I’m heading an army, eradicating the remnants of the Institute, rescuing kidnapped settlers and wayward synths, defending checkpoints, managing settlements, tracking down renegade robots, and capturing creatures for my Friday night arena fights at Starlight Drive-In. I can’t carry the weight of the Commonwealth, my numerous economic enterprises AND a relationship on my shoulders alone, even with the Strong Back perk.

And speaking of encumbrance, MacCready bitches, “Don’t make me carry that worthless crap!” While Hancock says, “Let me know what I can carry.” Every time he says it, it makes me love that ghoul so damn hard.

My sole survivor, Fiona, with Mayor John Hancock in Goodneighbor. She's a bit damp because of the rain, and because she's always a bit damp around Hancock.

Hancock supports my involvement in the Minutemen, my favorite part of the game. He says, “I turned one of the nastiest settlements in the Commonwealth into a refuge for the lost. I thought I’d done something I could hang my hat on. But being out here with you, it’s made me realize just how small time I’d been thinking.”

Of the people, for the people. Hancock gets it. Meanwhile, MacCready complains every time I give someone a drink of water or pick up a desk fan. No, I’m not “collecting antiques,” I’m building a wind turbine for the settlers at Oberland Station, you miserable bastard.

I felt guilty for awhile, leaving Mac home in Taffington and running around with my back door man. Or, in my case, my “blue door” man. Then one day I heard Mac say, “For you, Cait, I’d do anything,” and realized maybe he was running around on me, too. That’s fine. I think Cait would be perfect for him. They can go be pissy together.

I’m enjoying the game so much more with John at my side. So, it’s time to grab some Mentats and get this freakshow on the road. You feel me?

~ J.L. Hilton

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Top 10 historical babes

These are my top 10 favorite actors who’ve portrayed historic figures or literary characters, or appeared in period pieces and stories inspired by the past.

The U.S. has only recently discovered some of these hotties who I’ve known for the past decade or more. And in some cases, audiences may have forgotten that they were ever babes, at all! But, I will always remember.

#1 Richard Armitage

Before he was Thorin Oakenshield, Richard Armitage was the brooding, leather-clad Guy of Gisborne in Robin Hood, and the stoic Victorian capitalist John Thornton in North & South.

#2 Rutger Hauer

Prior to True Blood, Galavant, Sin City or my personal favorite, Hobo With a Shotgun, Rutger Hauer was the star-crossed captain Navarre in Ladyhawke and medieval merc Martin in Flesh+Blood. (Though those of us who are geeks will probably love him best as Roy Batty, the synth in the dystopian SF movie Blade Runner.)

#3 Jason Momoa

Jason Momoa joins this list via Game of Thrones, Conan the Barbarian, and his portrayal of pirate Jean Lafitte in an episode of Drunk History.

#4 Sean Bean

Before he was Ned Stark, Boromir or an Internet meme, Sean Bean was Richard Sharpe, Lady Chatterley’s lover, and a prince in Jim Henson’s 1980s show The Storyteller.

#5 Eddie Redmayne

Unknown to most people in the US before he appeared in Les Misérables or The Theory of Everything, Eddie Redmayne portrayed such historical figures as Southampton in Elizabeth I (2005), Thomas Babington in Elizabeth: The Golden Age (2007), William Stafford in The Other Boleyn Girl (2008), a 12th century peasant in The Pillars of the Earth, and writer Colin Clark in My Week With Marilyn (2011), as well as Richard II on stage.

#6 Ron Perlman

Most people know him now as the patriarch of the Sons of Anarchy, Hellboy or that guy who says, “War, war never changes,” in the Fallout franchise. I’ve been a fan of Ron Perlman since I knew him as Vincent in the Beauty and the Beast TV show in the late 1980s (for which George R.R. Martin wrote 14 episodes btw). If you haven’t seen City of Lost Children (1995) – and you like steampunk or video games like Bioshock – I highly recommend it. He’s also appeared in Quest for Fire and medieval murder mystery The Name of the Rose.

#7 Clancy Brown

Clancy Brown entered my life as the Kurgen in the first Highlander movie (1986) and Viktor in the under-appreciated retelling of Frankenstein, The Bride (1985). Not only the voice of Mr. Krabbs in Spongebob Squarepants, he appeared in Depression-era supernatural series Carnivale and medieval Pathfinder.

#8 Ray Stevenson

In the Marvel universe, he’s Volstagg (2011) and the Punisher (2008), but I first saw him as Pullo in the HBO/BBC series Rome (2005-2007). He’s also Dagonet in the 2004 King Arthur.

#9 Tony Curran

Tony Curran first came to my attention in Underworld (2006), as the delicious redheaded demon Marcus, though I’d seen him in 13th Warrior (1999), Gladiator (2000), Mists of Avalon (2001) and League of Extraordinary Gentlemen (2003) before that, without realizing it. He’s also been in period dramas Beowulf & Grendel, Pearl Harbor, and Pillars of the Earth, and portrayed Vincent Van Gogh in Doctor Who.

#10 Rufus Sewell

I first saw Rufus Sewell in Dark City and Dangerous Beauty (both from 1998). Though the former is SF and not historical, the latter is set in 16th-century Venice. I went on to later watch him in period pieces Middlemarch, A Knight’s Tale, The IllusionistPillars of the Earth and Hercules. If I was Isolde, I would have much rather been with him, as Lord Marke, than with James Franco in Tristan+Isolde.

Honorable mentions

David Wenham in 300, LOTR & Van Helsing

Nathan Jones as Boagrius in Troy

Mark Lewis Jones as Uther Pendragon in Mists of Avalon

David Janer in Aguila Roja. Satur and Hernan aren't bad, either!

Brendan Gleeson in Braveheart, Beowulf, Kingdom of Heaven, Stonehearst Asylum, Troy & more.

Before he became Harry Potter's nemesis, Ralph Fiennes appeared in several period pieces, including Wuthering Heights, The English Patient & more.

~ J.L. Hilton

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My Fallout 4 romance: RJ “Slim” MacCready

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Meet my new video game bf, Robert Josesph “RJ” MacCready. I honestly didn’t expect to romance the asshole mercenary, who I referred to as either “Slim,” “Reedy MacCready,” or “Bobbi No-Butt,” before I got to know him.

I tend to like the strong, silent type – more meat on their bones and a lot less lip. I had a big crush on Sturges at the beginning of the game, and my 15yo daughter left this on my nightstand:

"My old man taught me duct tape could fix anything." - Sturges, Fallout 4

Though some readers may recall how I started out with the big Nord tank Stenvar, in Skyrim, and ended up with the slick, snarky dark elf spellsword Teldryn Sero. So, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised.

Before I reached the “idolized” level of friendship with MacCready, my love life was a toss up between fellow Minuteman and knight in tarnished armor Preston Garvey, or the coolest ghoul in the Commonwealth, libertarian mayor Hancock of Goodneighbor. Paladin Danse is just a jackass in a can and I don’t care how cute everyone says he is, I still won’t join the Brotherhood.

MacCready won me over when he turned out to be not-such-an-asshole-after-all. “He’s one of the good ones,” as Daisy says. Someone with similar experiences to the Sole Survivor – a son, a spouse killed right in front of him – and unlike Kellogg, MacCready actually regrets being a mercenary and turning into a jerk after life dealt him a really bad hand.

A lot of people have pointed out that MacCready has bad teeth. Whatever. Everyone in the wasteland would have bad teeth, B.O., and stank ass. They’re wiping with 200-year-old copies of the Boston Bugle and there’s not a lot of indoor plumbing.

Danse calls MacCready an “insubordinate civilian,” but that’s just another selling point, far as I’m concerned.

When I finished the Last Voyage of the U.S.S. Constitution quest, MacCready and I watched the airship triumphantly sail away… and crash on another building. He laughed and said, “Oh, yeah, it looks MUCH better over there!” and I was smitten. Sarcasm will get me every time.

“I know I tend to be arrogant and I come off like I want to be alone. Nothing could be further from the truth. Being alone scares the heck out of me.”
– Robert Josesph MacCready

I can relate to this completely. Plus, he stays out of my way and knows how to handle shit hitting the fan. (Sorry, Preston, I can’t forgive you for constantly shoving your musket in my face and that time you just stood there while six ghouls dog-piled on me in a stairwell.)

“I plan on walking this earth with you until the day I die.”
– Robert Josesph MacCready

Sounds like a marriage proposal to me. So, I removed my old wedding ring and have started referring to my character as Fiona MacCready. I like to imagine that our wedding’s officiated by Hancock at the Castle and broadcast over Freedom Radio. Let the whole Commonwealth know that the General’s hitched to the skinny, smartass sniper.

~ J.L. Hilton

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In honor of Edgar Allan Poe’s birthday

I thought I’d share some of my favorite Poe-related items:

(c) Sue Beatrice, All Natural Arts

To One in Paradise – Not one of his well-known works, but I liked this poem so much, I memorized it in high school.

A Dream Within A Dream – Another of my favorite Poe poems, with its desperation and despair at the inevitable passage of time and meaninglessness of life.

Masters of Horror: The Black Cat – TV episode starring Jeffrey Combs as Poe.

Stonehearst Asylum – Movie loosely based on the short story “The System of Doctor Tarr and Professor Fether” by Poe. Don’t watch any trailers, though, they all contain spoilers.

How well do you know Edgar Allan Poe? (quiz)

Poe Museum <— Visit

PoeStories.com <— Read more of his poems and stories here.

Born in Boston on January 19, 1809, Edgar Allan Poe was an American writer, editor, and literary critic, best known for his poetry and short stories, particularly his tales of mystery and macabre. A central figure of Romanticism (emphasis on emotion and individualism as well as glorification of all the past and nature), Poe is considered the inventor of the detective fiction genre and contributed to the emerging genre of science fiction. He died in Baltimore on October 7, 1849, under mysterious circumstances.

~ J.L. Hilton

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